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Here Comes The Sadist, by Bernard Fanning, 2013 https://genius.com/Bernard-fanning-here-comes-the-sadist-lyrics

Here comes the sadist on his afternoon stroll
Trying to gather information
Like a holy roller trying to save my soul
From perpetual damnation
Now the Andalusian ladies wave and blink and smile
While Papa goes to work and takes a bit on the side
Just like nothing ever happened
They're all manicured up within an inch of their lives

All this talk about contagion
But the sadist will need saving
When the curtain comes down

Oh the workers march in tandem down the hungry mile
Trying to makes the sadists listen
Given voice to all the problems of the rank and file
But he thinks it's all a fiction
There's reason why some people live their life on their knees
So the money lending jackals can go on as they please
Just like nothing ever happened
Privatise the profits - socialise the disease

All this talk about contagion
But the sadist will need saving
When the curtain comes down

Here comes the sadist on his afternoon stroll
Like a holy roller trying to save my soul
Holy rolling
Here comes the sadist on his afternoon stroll
Holy rolling

https://youtu.be/OPVspjoSCzc

So here's the issue:

Torah tropes, cantillation, are taught via basically a different musical notation scheme, where a small symbol over or under the accented syllable in a word stands for a specific musical phrase. The Torah tutor usually provides a recording of the chanted verses as well. Yes, I can read silently Hebrew with vowel marks for almost complete comprehension, but I still mix up SAYING asher versus acher. I can read treble clef to play piano at least as well as Eighties pop ballads, my normal singing range.

I have both some neurological damage caused dyslexia, and my audio processing disorder files the tutor's vocal range in "input error", incomprensible.

Anyone have any ideas on how to get a specific plainsong type chant in my head, when I don't have vowels in the scroll to read from? Genesis 18:5-6 in Hebrew, if that helps anyone knowledgeable on specifics.

I'm getting desperate, and frustrated, and the tutor doesn't quite understand the neurological damage and learning disorders.

Edited: Ok, I tried something different this morning: hand writing each word using a skeletal Hebrew hand, as I listen to each word. It's working, but my hand HURTS. Have I mentioned dysgraphia as well? Sigh.

I think I'm going to try a Dremel to carve my verses in our scroll size on a small plaque after I finally finish this writing.